Change is something that I usually handle pretty well, I even embrace it. I am not the type of person that likes to stay put for very long. I like growing and going, maybe I was raised like that maybe I just came that way. Hard to tell! Lately I have felt stuck in a rut. The rut is consuming me. Today I have tried to figure out what the rut is...I know sounds strange. I have not really come to a conclusion. Just that I am not happy the way "things" stand right now.
Our church has been in mild turmoil for the past two years. We lost our pastor and then replaced him, lost our youth minister (and good friend) and are waiting to replace him. In the mean time, I have lost the feeling of a good church home. I have lost good friends that made going to church feel like a close knit family. Today as I looked around I noticed that the close knit family consisted of two or three people now. I know that the people are not the reason why we go to church, but it is why we keep going and why we plug in to go more. I want so bad to have a church that I have others like me, working moms that feel the stress I feel and can meet me online or at Starbucks because they know that either is an acceptable meeting place. Right now I do not see that happening. So maybe my rut is spiritual, maybe I need that cup to be filled. Or Maybe that is just the beginning and the easiest to fix. The other causes are deeper and require much more...
3 comments:
Hey Jen! Thanks so much for your words of encouragement! Your words are a blessing I needed! You are a true inspiration to your church as an example of a Godly woman, wife, and mother! You and Bill impacted Jonas and I tremendously! Even though we haven't been back in a while we still remember those people that touched our souls! It is good to know that I am not the only one in a rut at the moment!! If you need some encouragement about church know you and Bill are touching the hearts of a generation that is in desperate need of a Savior and examples! We REALLY need to go on a double date soon! I know Jonas misses Bill! :)
Oh, Jenn...I do wish I could help. I loved the honesty of your post. Made me think...maybe I'm stuck in a bit of a rut. Hope God can give you the strength, peace, comfort and change that you need/desire. As you know, take it all to God in prayer...He can definitely help!
Hang in there kiddo....Jeremiah 29:11. We are proud of the foundation you all are giving the boys. Maybe you just need to "Be still and Know." I love you! Mom
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