Slacker

It has been brought ot my attention that I am a bloggin' slacker! I think that is cyber talk for we miss you. (I will go with that!) The last few weeks have been a very trying time at work so I have been mentally exhausted when I get home. Anyone able to second that? I am sure it does not matter if you work in or out of the house you just have those days when you search for the sollice of a quiet room with fluffy pillows and not a child in sight. Unfortunately, not all of that is possible all the time. I am however blessed with great children and a wonderful husband that let me have my moments sometimes.
There have been some other things going on as well. As you might have read a few blogs back I was quite frustrated with the way things were, I took the direction of church to focus my blog on, but really there was more. Bill and I had come to a real fork in our marriage. Maybe fork is the wrong word... lets say a speed bump. Our lives had become so busy and "life focused" that we had neglected the US part of our marriage. We were great parents, good Sunday School teachers, good friends and family members, but not good spouses. So we decided to seek counseling. Marci Holloway was the therapist that we started going to a few months ago. The first meeting was brutal! I am not sure what I expected, but I was an emotional wreck when I left. We had discussed so many feelings out loud that my wounds were wide open and they hurt! I ended up taking the next day off just to reflect on what we had talked about and how I wanted to fix me so I could work on the US. She had a gentle way of putting things in a way that made me finally be honest with myself. Bill and I began reading a book together about improving ourselves first in order to create a great marriage. We have taken some huge steps in our relationship, but none as great as those we have taken over the last few months. That is the only reason I feel comfortable sharing this with everyone. We are never finished working on our marriage, but we have some wonderful tools now that we know how to use when needed. I am very proud of the emotional maturity we are working on building together. We have learned that marriage is a masterpiece in progress. As early as our relationship started we should have one heck of a picture when this is all said and done.
I love you Billy Lambert!